jackpot!

I felt like I'd struck lottery today.

An unexpected call while I was out running my errands brought me to NewAsia Bar in the company of a friend who's back from London. We had a good chat, polished off an entire basket of utterly delectable calamari (I still maintain NewAsia Bar has the best calamari EVER), and toasted to each other's successful scholarship with martinis. All this before 6pm... heh. We gazed down at Singapore's skyline, replete with the ubiquitous HDB flats that have come to be known as the staple in our local architectural industry; we looked out towards the distant seas and wondered what lands lay ahead; we picked apart SMU's lack of aesthetic value and pondered on the future of design in Singapore; from our vantage point, we imagined what it would feel like skiing off the top of the National Library's futuristic-looking blob roof. His future seems so bright, and although armed with the slightest hint of a paunch this time round, his dimples still captivate and would have charmed the socks off me had I been wearing any. Happiness is such- the feeling of contentment in listening to the other speak about issues close to his heart, the warmth of the sun's rays filtered through the full-height glass planes, the reclining on a plush velvet day bed, the world literally at your feet.

Recently I've been asking myself this question: What do I really look for in a man? Is it looks, money, character, or just a feeling that I get when I'm with him? Is it language, the way he speaks or even the sound of his voice? Is it how big his biceps are or how toned his abs is? Is it height, build, or even just the financial ability to pay for our outings together? Is is similar interests, similar backgrounds or similar opinions? I think love is hard to quantify, and even more impossible to analyse. It all just seems so beyond me. I can't even begin to say why someone would be attracted to me, of all people in the world. Whatever it is, I just know that when it happens, I want to be as comfortable with him as I am with the afore-mentioned friend. I haven't found him yet, just in case you were wondering. Oh, and of course, he's got to be into girls. :p